I wonder.
Yeah, sometimes... I just wonder. About life, about everything. About people, about relationships. Sometimes I have the feeling that everything is nice and easy and just how it is supposed to be. But some other times... Everything seems too much, too complicated, too overwhelming. Funny how this is coming from me - me, the biggest fan of the "It' complicated" phrase. NOT!) *snorts*So I wonder... where does this road lead to? What is it out there, waiting for you? What do you do when you're at a crossroad? How do you make the right decision? How do you deal with the decision you've made?
Who can you trust? Where should you draw a line and when is it ok if you crossed it?Why, when you finally give up and leave your armor behind, deciding to open up completely - why is it right then when you get hurt? What did you do wrong? Or, better yet, did you do anything wrong? Did you make a bad decision or you just gave yourself a "nice" push forward? How much is too much? How late is too late? How far is too far? Why do you feel so small and vulnerable one day and strong enough to conquer the world the other day? What should l I do next? Where should I go? Do these questions help or they just make you raise another ones, equally irritating? :D
Too many questions. Maybe I spend too much time with myself lately. *LOL* Or maybe I shouldn't have read so many fantasy books in such a short time. The lines between Real Life and La la Land are becoming too thin. *crazy much?*Or maybe I just shouldn't have skipped my NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming) class. Maybe that infuriating teacher could help, after all...
OR maybe I think/day dream too much.I should go back to work, I've got a deadline and everything. (which leads me to another question - what do you do when work becomes a way too important part of your life?)
And why do I sound so much like my teenage little sister these days?*rolls eyes*
Still... I wonder...
P.S. Sorry about the spelling, I'm still working on my English. *sheepish grin*P.P.S. This post remembers me about the book The Host (Stephenie Meyer). I'd love to read it again.
xoxo ♥Deea
I wonder.
Yeah, sometimes... I just wonder. About life, about everything. About people, about relationships. Sometimes I have the feeling that everything is nice and easy and just how it is supposed to be. But some other times... Everything seems too much, too complicated, too overwhelming. Funny how this is coming from me - me, the biggest fan of the "It' complicated" phrase. NOT!) *snorts*
So I wonder... where does this road lead to? What is it out there, waiting for you? What do you do when you're at a crossroad? How do you make the right decision? How do you deal with the decision you've made?
Who can you trust? Where should you draw a line and when is it ok if you crossed it?
Why, when you finally give up and leave your armor behind, deciding to open up completely - why is it right then when you get hurt? What did you do wrong? Or, better yet, did you do anything wrong? Did you make a bad decision or you just gave yourself a "nice" push forward?
How much is too much? How late is too late? How far is too far?
Why do you feel so small and vulnerable one day and strong enough to conquer the world the other day?
What should l I do next? Where should I go?
Do these questions help or they just make you raise another ones, equally irritating? :D
Too many questions. Maybe I spend too much time with myself lately. *LOL* Or maybe I shouldn't have read so many fantasy books in such a short time. The lines between Real Life and La la Land are becoming too thin. *crazy much?*
Or maybe I just shouldn't have skipped my NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming) class. Maybe that infuriating teacher could help, after all...
OR maybe I think/day dream too much.I should go back to work, I've got a deadline and everything. (which leads me to another question - what do you do when work becomes a way too important part of your life?)
And why do I sound so much like my teenage little sister these days?*rolls eyes*
Still... I wonder...
P.S. Sorry about the spelling, I'm still working on my English. *sheepish grin*
P.P.S. This post remembers me about the book The Host (Stephenie Meyer). I'd love to read it again.
xoxo ♥
Deea
Hey peeps!♥ I've always been a fan of literature, letters, philology. In fact, that's what I studied in high school and college. Why? Hmm... Probably because they all give you the opportunity to see the world beyond the words. To discover and understand things or more precisely, thoughts. Anyway, I'm not writing this post to babble about 'nerdy stuff, but to name a few things that motivated me to start a blog. So... Someone asked me a few days ago why I don't go out with friends, read a book or go shopping instead of blogging. Hey, I do that too, it's not like I'm glued to the keyboard 24/7! But this... this is my getaway, so to speak. In fact, I recently realized that writing can provide such a great getaway as the reading. The difference is that instead of "hiding" in a different word - someone else's world, I "hide" into my own (which seems pretty crazy to me too). So, for a few minutes in a day... I can afford to hide. To pretend that everything and everyone is perfect in the world or that I just don't care. Everything else fades away. It's just me. And my thoughts. And the music playing in the background. And this keyboard. And my craziness! :)) (Oh, never mind... I'm sure there is a cure somewhere for that, but I'm not interested in finding it just yet. ) Another reason is that I can put here thoughts that never make it out of my head. Sometimes thoughts that I didn't even know they were there. (Yeah, that's very interesting; human mind can be so damn complicated!) Things that somehow make more sense when 'on paper'. Or not at all and I should slap myself on the forehead just for having them! :)) I write this because I want to. Because it makes me feel free. Because it makes me know myself better. Because I don't have to think twice before saying something that might hurt someone. And the list could go on... And my posts too. But now I've got some work to do. And it's 12 AM. So I'd better go back to the Real World. See ya!;) Xo. Deea
Hey peeps!♥
I've always been a fan of literature, letters, philology. In fact, that's what I studied in high school and college. Why? Hmm... Probably because they all give you the opportunity to see the world beyond the words. To discover and understand things or more precisely, thoughts.
Anyway, I'm not writing this post to babble about 'nerdy stuff, but to name a few things that motivated me to start a blog.
So... Someone asked me a few days ago why I don't go out with friends, read a book or go shopping instead of blogging. Hey, I do that too, it's not like I'm glued to the keyboard 24/7!
But this... this is my getaway, so to speak. In fact, I recently realized that writing can provide such a great getaway as the reading. The difference is that instead of "hiding" in a different word - someone else's world, I "hide" into my own (which seems pretty crazy to me too). So, for a few minutes in a day... I can afford to hide.
To pretend that everything and everyone is perfect in the world or that I just don't care.
Everything else fades away. It's just me. And my thoughts. And the music playing in the background. And this keyboard. And my craziness! :)) (Oh, never mind... I'm sure there is a cure somewhere for that, but I'm not interested in finding it just yet. )
Another reason is that I can put here thoughts that never make it out of my head. Sometimes thoughts that I didn't even know they were there. (Yeah, that's very interesting; human mind can be so damn complicated!) Things that somehow make more sense when 'on paper'. Or not at all and I should slap myself on the forehead just for having them! :))
I write this because I want to. Because it makes me feel free. Because it makes me know myself better. Because
I don't have to think twice before saying something that might hurt someone.
And the list could go on...
And my posts too.
But now I've got some work to do. And it's 12 AM. So I'd better go back to the Real World.
See ya!;)
Xo. Deea
